And... we're back.

Sorry for the hiatus, Friends.

It's been a whirlwind of a month filled with so many satisfying peaks and very low valleys.

I want to end on a good note, so I suppose I'll start with the Valleys.

The Valleys

After a month long struggle in the hospital, my Grandfather passed with our family by his side.  We visited often and were thankful for the opportunity to say goodbye and spend time with our family.  Someone close to us (who lost her husband) gently reminded us of this,  and it was helpful in getting through a very difficult time.  I have a lot  to say about this, and I want to do so in a separate post.  I feel as if I took a month long course on love, death and dying.   It's a lot to process.

My Mother-in-law decided to act like a complete jerk for several weeks. She's unhappy and she's been letting us know in every passive aggressive way possible, complete with a fireworks style capstone event on Mother's Day, the day after my Grandfather died.    There's more on that to come....maybe.  D reads this blog from time to time and I'm not sure if I can be even remotely tactful at this point.  Very, very sour is how I'm feeling on this topic, folks.

The Peaks

We have successfully waited out another month and are ready for my cycle to start.  I'm hoping that our baseline check looks as good as last time.  Our fingers are crossed.  It could be any day.  I have made plans to go to Colorado with my aunt for the first part of the trip, and D will join me later on.

Something I've been quiet about here, but I'm ready to share about is that we purchased a cottage.  The timing of this was truly a blessing as it allowed us to be closer to our family during such a difficult time.   Being there for the past three weeks really affirmed our decision to purchase.  I felt content.  Which is  a very strange feeling for me.  It surprised me that it came during a time filled with so many other difficulties.  I think the fact that I could feel it even though we were coping with some very heavy things is telling.  More on this to come too.

For now though, I plan to catch up with what's been going on with all of you over a nice cup of tea. Boy, I missed you! (and my computer).

xo

Some Good News

Thought I hit publish yesterday, but I guess I didn't... oops.



We've had some good news! ***Happy Dance!!! ****

1. My younger brother got his first "real" job.  He's a teacher and it's difficult to land a job where he lives but he got creative he did it!

2.  Another friend after almost a year of unemployment was told that she is this.close to an offer of employment!

3.   Today I got my period, and on time!  This means tomorrow I go for a suppression check and then we are off to the races to start stims.  I've thankfully never failed a suppression check so hopefully this one will be no different.

4.  Yesterday we put an offer on a property in my hometown.  We know who the seller is and we hear they are motivated to sell.  We are hoping to make a deal!  It's the perfect location for us and the house is very livable right now, which was not the case for a few we looked at.  As of right now, if we got an accepted offer, the plan is keep the property as a cottage buy a little boat and live there NEXT SUMMER (whoot- whoot!) and then increase our time there.  We would renovate it eventually (it's always been a dream of mine to build a home).  We are in discussions about moving there full time.  D works from home so this could work for us.  

5.  I am still attending boot camp.  Yeah me! I'm proud of myself. I've been going 3-4x per week.  I also have a get out of jail free card coming for exercise - nothing other than light exercise after day 4 of stims.  I like guilt free non-exercising!

6.  My aunt offered to travel with Colorado with me.  She's newly retired and said it would be a nice trip for her.   I'm grateful for this.  She's the best aunt anyone could ask for.  In many ways she acts like more of a mother to me than my own.

I'm still working on the bathroom but need to go and pick out the tile.  I've been procrastinating a bit.  The toilet and sink are cream coloured and the shower has grey tile. I would like to change the sink to white.  However all of our toilets in our house are cream coloured and I really don't feel like updating them all.  I'm not sure if the money spent doing so will increase the value of our house.  I think the money could be better spent elsewhere if we chose to spend.

I'm also working on the curriculum for the kids program I run once a week.  I despise this part of things.

The other thing I am doing is working on an annual summary of our lives.  This is the 4th year I've done this.  I write out all of the good and some of the not so good events that happened throughout the year.  This helps me with my memory (it's not the best).  Also I think it's neat to reflect over the years that have passed.   It makes me feel productive and good to look back at all of the things we did.  It's also kind of validating in a weird way.  2012 was a tough year for us fertility-wise.  Two miscarriages before March,  1 surgery and 3 fertility procedures.

My Dad says he feels like good things are going to happen in 2013 for me and my siblings.  So far my two brothers have been having a good year with the new job and new baby.   I really hope he's right!

PS) I forgot to take before pics of the bathroom! Boo!