Friday, 6 June 2014
All things fertility have been progressing slowly, and shhhh...don't tell anyone, but this time I don't mind.
I've been distracted with company and home renovation projects (mostly painting). It feels good to think about other things.
Some of the company that came were my friends that I wrote about a lot in the month of May. I worried a bit that things might feel a bit awkward after asking for more support, but they weren't. Phew!
We had a wonderful time. The weather was great, we rode bikes and went on a 3 hour boat cruise, ate tons of yummy food and had a bon fire. We sat on a floating couch thingy that they bought for us for hours. It was my idea of perfection. I'm feeling very grateful for the time we've been able to spend here and for how things worked out with them.
If we hadn't all talked before they visited, I know this weekend (if it happened at all) may have been tainted with resentment towards them. I'm thankful that the lines of communication were opened.
This week, we had another meeting with Dr. S.
The purpose of the meeting was to find out more info about our CCS results.
We were wondering if they could determine anything from the abnormalities ie) if they were from sperm or egg issues? He said they had no way of knowing his information.
The 3 normals we had were 3 of our highest rated embryos. They were previously rated:
He suggested re-testing our no results.
We asked again about if he thought if we should transfer 1 or 2 embryos and what his rationale was for his response. Last time when we didn't have our CCS results, he suggested two.
Surprisingly, said two again. He said this is because of the number of embryos and transfers we have had in the past. He said we didn't know for sure if the ones we transferred were normal or abnormal.
This was very different advice than what we got from Dr. Gustofson with our last transfer (at the same clinic). He suggested one when we didn't know if they were normal or not.
(Side note: In my heart, I believe that most if not all of the embryos we transferred in the past were abnormal. Of course, I have no proof of this. I believe this however , because seven of them were donor embies where there were known miscarriage issues. The next six were our genetic embies (with all of our issues) and the last one one was the donor egg (where we know that at least 5 of the last 11 were abnormal- so who knows if that one was normal or not).
Regarding our last DE embaby, I'd be interested in knowing if it was more or less likely to have been because of a genetic abnormality after finding a heart rate? I didn't think to ask.
In our meeting with Dr. S, there were a few annoying contradictions. They were about medications and protocols. There was also some contradictory info between what Dr. G said the last time and what Dr. S said, and what Dr. G said made more sense.
Dr. S is slipping out of our good books. We're going to stick with him, but D and I are feeling a bit frustrated with him. He's supposed to be the best, but he tells us different things at each meeting. I feel like it's because he has barely reviewed our file before our call. He says one thing, I remind him of what he said before and why, and then he changes his tune. We have very high expectations of him and this clinic, yes, but I know the contradictions would be something I would be annoyed at if they happened somewhere else too. For example, how many times should I have to remind them that I can't take the pill because of my family history and my risk of stroke? Gah!
Anyways, Overall, he said that he was glad we did the CCS, which he previously described as something he didn't recommend and "overkill".
I think transferring two normal embryos (which Dr. S says almost all of his DE patients do) might be overkill. Who knows though, we're still thinking about it.
Now, I will continue to wait for my HCG to drop below 5.
I had a test recently and I'm still awaiting the results. After it has dropped, I'll need one more test and then my fertility vacation will be over.