My symptoms are:
- Extreme tiredness/laziness. As in, I massively don't care if I get anything done, and I would have two naps a day if I could.
- Slightly rounder, heavier feeling and slightly tender boobs.
- The twinges/cramps in my uterus stopped a week or so ago. They freaked me out when they were here, now they are freaking me out that they are not.
- I have a very specific opinion about what I want to eat, and what I do not. My appetite is down and I am craving bland, unhealthy carbs like saltine crackers, white bread and junk food. I'm feeling guilty about not scarfing down heaps of dark green veggies and other healthy foods right now.
Our ultrasound is scheduled for April the 3rd with Dr. Highrisk. CCRM says they don't need my progesterone & estrogen levels checked again until that day (gasp!). Hubby and I decided not to go to our satellite clinic for an earlier appointment (it would have been March 31st at the earliest because of D's travel). We've decided that we don't want to know the bad news (if there is some) any sooner.
I keep reminding myself that the doctor said that with donor egg there was only a 5% miscarriage rate. Even with my history of miscarriages, they are still sticking with this number because of the supposedly poor embryo quality we transferred in the past. Deep down though, I feel like this number is too low. I mean, don't get me wrong. Who wouldn't want to hear 5%?!! It's fantastic! But in my messed up head, that number feels like it should be 40-50%. At least.
I'd like to sit back and relax. But I can't. Anxiety's my middle name these days. I am driving myself nuts.
Do any of you have tips on how to chill out my overactive infertile brain?