It's over, but not completely

We made a plan that I was going to take the Misoprostal on Monday night and Tuesday morning. This was the latest day that the nurse recommended to do it. We were waiting for the holiday weekend to be over.

My body had its own idea though. On Friday, I started having a small amount of bleeding and slight cramping.  On Saturday night at 6pm, I started having major cramping and knew that it was going to happen. 

For three hours, I passed a lot of blood and clots.  The cramping went from severe period like cramping to horrible abdominal pain. It got really intense. It was the kind of pain where you think about calling an ambulance, but you also can't imagine being touched, let alone leaving your bathroom. 

I took two different kinds of pain meds, but they felt like they did nothing. 

We didn't have any prescription strength meds because we hadn't filled it yet. I didn't expect to need them before I took the Misoprostal, so I was unprepared. Half way through the miscarriage, I was desparate and D asked a friend who lived nearby to fill the prescription for painkillers.   

I passed something the size of the palm of my hand, and that seemed to relieve my pain almost immediately. I don't think that I have ever felt so relieved in my life. 

With my first miscarriage, I assumed that the extreme pain, etc. that had was largely from dramatic effects of the Misoprostal. This time around, I realized that it probably wasn't the meds but the miscarriage itself that was the biggest pain inducer...silly of me to think that, but now I've learned a bit more I guess. 

We tried to save the larger pieces ofthe products of conception. We were hoping to identify the gestational sac, so that we could complete the Natera testing. 

At first that seemed very disgusting but after a while we almost seemed like scientists. It was a somewhat fascinating to see what had been in my uterus. 

We picked out some things that we though were suitable and put them in the specimin container. Honestly, despite having the diagrams to go by, we had absolutely no idea what we were doing. 

We had planned to send that away today after we had D's blood drawn (because it's DE). 

Again, we learned that nature sometimes has its own plans. I checked in the shower today if there was anything left that I could feel in my vagina. I did this because in my first miscarriage, a week after I found a chunk of something lodged. That time, I was able to get it out. This time, I couldn't. 

I didn't have any cramping, otherwise I would have a little hope that it would come out on its own. 

I felt so disappointed and upset. Why couldn't this just be over?  The relief that i felt yesterday was gone. 

So today we decided onve again what we would do. We called the clinic and our OB to see what they thought. Both said to go to the Emergency Department, so that is where we sit now, waiting and wondering what's next.