Two other things in my online life have upset me.
Over the last couple of days, I've been following a Resolve.org post. I don't go to this site often, but there was a time that it was my lifeline. I stumbled upon a post of a woman who had just experienced a stillbirth after a long journey with infertility. Reading that post and seeing such raw grief was terrifying. It has set me back. I cry for her and all of the other women who wrote in to support of her, sharing similar experiences. I am so terrified that after our struggle, that this could one day be us. I don't know that I could pick myself up after that type of loss.
Another blogger, Mara from A Blog About Love, wrote recently about how she and her hubby have decided to end their fertility journey, and that they will not be pursuing adoption because they are out of stamina. Before infertility, and early in my journey I could never understand how people could give up on their dreams of having children. Now, after almost 7 years of infertility, I understand. Knowing that feeling frightens me.