Friday, 9 May 2014
There will be so many things for me to think about on Mother's Day, as I'm sure there will be for you too. I will be spending the day with my Mother, Grandmother, D, my nephew, siblings and their partners.
We will be remembering my beautiful Grandfather, who we lost one year ago to the day, all too suddenly. I will be quietly remembering our four babies. I will be missing them like crazy and sending my sweet little ones so much love. My heart gets so heavy when I think of them.
This year, I will try to take comfort in knowing that on this difficult day, I am not alone, even though it might feel that way. We are surrounded by this community of strong, amazing women. For that, I am truly grateful.
I will be remembering the battles that you all courageously fight, and the sacrifices you make every single day to make your dreams a reality. I will remembering those of you who never got to bring your precious babies home. I wish it was different for you.
I will also be thinking of those of you who have made it through to the other side, or are on your way. I know you still feel the deep imprint of infertility and loss on your hearts. I hope that your burden will continue to lighten.
I hope on Sunday that I will be able to do what I need to do to shield myself from collecting more pain. That I may find a way to do it gracefully, and that the people around me will understand.
I am hoping next year will be better for us all.