CCRM calls your schedule of medicines and procedures your calendar. Dr. Schoolie answered our request for this from his vacation and I got mine the other day. The nurse took some time to explain to me various components. I told her that in our last consult, the doctor had previously told us that I would be on the most aggressive protocol that they have. She agreed and said he was "throwing the book at me".
Under my bathroom sink I have six filled sharps containers to prove it. There is another super-sized model in the closest, that is also half full. For whatever reason, I can't bring myself to throw them out. It's like a little fertility grave yard under my sink. Each needle represents some weird badge of pain from our IF war.
My naturopathic doctor told me that my kidneys were likely very stressed from all of the drugs I have been taking. She said in Eastern medicine it is believed that when you are pregnant you give half of your energy to the baby. She said that this was the case even for a miscarriage. The fact that I had two in 2012 she said would have really depleted my energy levels. That moment that she said that made my eyes water. It was validating in a way that I never thought of before. A reminder of the pain that I still carry from losing those three tiny babies.